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Thy Will Be Done

Wednesday, September 1st, 2010

That was a very humbling experience, and I thank GOD that I am even counted worthy to bring His Word.

What was brought up this evening was very deep and profound, and though I didn’t expound on that much, the Written Word of GOD said it better than I ever could.

The purpose was to instruct the Body of believers on the topic of “end time prophecies”, and it would have taken way too long to fully expound upon all there is to discuss in this particular subject of discourse. There’s so much I left out, so many different revelations I’ve been given from doing my own researching and studying, that it would have taken quite a long time to fully explain it all.

Some things have to remain a mystery, even to me. I certainly don’t know everything about everything, I’m still learning about the Ways of GOD, and I’m still learning how to properly serve the Lord.

This wretched flesh of mine is weak, and likes to do its own thing, but the spirit is willing to obey the Lord.

That was nothing but the Spirit, because the flesh didn’t want to do it.

Included in this blog is the powerpoint presentation that was used for the lesson.

I’ll be putting more of these together, and including them in my blogs, as a way to archive the lessons, so that anyone who wants to access them for later referencing may do so.

End Time Prophecies

I’d like to first of all thank the Lord our GOD, the Holy One of Israel, Yahweh, for allowing me to bring the Word this evening.  I’d also like to thank those who came to hear it, and I appreciate the time given to me to share the Knowledge, Wisdom, and Understanding the Lord has shared with me.

I know who blessed me with these many Gifts and talents, and I know who blessed me with these abilities.

I know where the Knowledge comes from (the Father, Divine Mind), I am wise to where the Wisdom comes from (the Son, Divine Body), and I understand where the Understanding comes from.

The Honor and Glory belongs to GOD, not me.

I’m just a vessel, He’s the One doing the work.

I’m just a lump of clay, He’s the Potter who is doing the shaping and molding.

May GOD bless all of you in new ways, may those who fear the Lord truly be encouraged.

May those who love GOD be restrengthened, replenished, rejuvenated, and renewed.

Yes, may the Lord’s Will be done on earth, as it is in Heaven.

Amen!

Praise GOD!

He’s Great,  He’s Wonderful,  He’s Awesome!
He’s Magnificent, He’s Spendid, He’s Superb!
He’s Holy, He’s Righteous, He’s Pure!
He’s Gracious, He’s Merciful, He’s Loving!

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You never cease to amaze me.
May Your Love always encase me.
I pray You continue to chasten me.
I must face You as You have faced me.

When I am broken, mend me.
If I am hurt, please comfort me.
I’m not worse, You make me better.
When I’m torn apart, put me together.

Whether the weather is sunny or cloudy,
Regardless if the world is peaceful or rowdy,
No matter if you say “wassup” or say “howdy”,
Don’t care if you’re an Israeli, Palestinian, or Saudi,

The Lord Christ Yeshua loves you, and care about you.
He’s with you wherever you go, He sees everything you do.
If we seek first the Kingdom of GOD, He’ll give us what is due.
So put Him first in your life, and He’ll make your dreams come true.

Before It’s Too Late

Monday, August 30th, 2010

In this spiritual warfare we are fighting in, we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against powers and principalities, evil spirits and demons.

I do not enjoy calling out names, and doing so makes me sound like a hypocrite, and makes me come across as judgmental.

There’s a time to tear down, and a time to build up.

There’s a time to rebuke, admonish, chastise, and correct, and there’s a time to encourage, uplift, motivate, and inspire.

This spiritual warfare we are fighting in does not involve picking up man-made weapons, which is why I totally disagree with the wars in Iraq and Afghanistan, and why I will never endorse or support them.

I really don’t care if Barack Obama (or Barry Soetoro) is a Christian or a Muslim, nor do I care if he was born in Kenya, or Hawaii. He’s still my brother in Christ, and he’s just a human, capable of sinning and making mistakes.

Look, I don’t agree with a lot of the policies and procedures of the Obama Administration, but I didn’t agree with a lot of the policies and procedures of the Bush Administration, or the Clinton Administration, or the Bush Sr. Administration. I’m old enough to remember when Ronald Reagan was President, but not old enough to state my opinion about his Presidency, because I was just 6 years old when he was elected, and was in Middle School when his tenure ended.

I have issues with both the Republican and Democratic parties, just like I have issues with the Tea Party.

It shouldn’t be about any particular political party, it should be about what’s best for America as a whole, and what’s best for U.S. citizens as a whole. This is why I don’t vote based on political party, and why, if I’m going to label myself or align with any kind of political affiliation, I’m an independent moderate.

I do know JFK spoke out vehemently against secret societies, and I have yet to hear Mr. Obama, or for that matter any other known politician, do so. I know JFK wrote an executive order (11110) to have the Federal Reserve abolished, but again, I hear very few politicians mention that kind of TRUE American History. I also know he was going to dismantle the CIA, which is more than likely why he was assassinated.

The problem with politics in America is, whenever anyone speaks the Truth, they are labeled as “conspiracy theorists”, or are called anti-American and unpatriotic.

For instance, I KNOW 9/11 was an inside job!

Saturday, September 11th, 2010, marks the 9th year anniversary (if such a term is appropriate) of 9/11.

We can discuss all the pertinent facts all day long and still be left with ambiguities and disagreements, which is why I try not to delve too deep into the matter. I’m not a conspiracy theorist, I do my researching and studying, I do check my facts, and there’s way too much evidence that points to 9/11 being an inside job, and very little evidence that supports 9/11 was carried out by “extreme”, “radical” Islamic fundamentalists like al-Qaeda and Osama bin Laden.

If anyone hasn’t figured it out yet, I’m a true, bona fide genius.

Not that I’m trying to brag or boast on myself, but I do indeed have a VERY high I.Q., and yes, it is verifiable.

Yes, I’m truly in the top .01% of the most intelligent people on this planet.

So my issues with politics in America is based on this one thing.

My fellow Americans are not being fairly represented by any of the three branches of the U.S. Government.

U.S. citizens are still left out of the loop, and still never listened to. The voice of the People has yet to be heard in Washington.

But then we have the political commentators and pundits working for the major news and media corporations who like to blame everything on the Obama Administration, when these serious problems America as a whole is dealing with were around before Mr. Obama ever stepped foot into the White House, before he ever took his oath of office.

So, rather than put the blame solely on the shoulders of the Obama administration, I’ll put the blame where it belongs, the global elitists and international bankers, who are America’s, and indeed all humanity’s, biggest threat to the survival of the human race.

These two wars have never been about liberating Iraqi or Afghan citizens, it’s always been about oil, drugs, and control. The global elitists and international bankers finance both sides of the war, so they don’t really care who wins or not, they still make an extreme amount of profit. Why? Because war is profitable.

So tomorrow I won’t be listening to the President as he addresses the nation in regard to the troop drawdown in Iraq, because I know he’s just a puppet. He’s not really the Commander in Chief, he’s just a spokesperson, a yes man, and his puppetmasters are the global elitists and international bankers, those who work for the Free Masons, iluminati, boule, and Bilderberg Group.

Oh, but you can’t trust Alex Jones and the Prison Planet and infowars staff, because they won’t even include a REAL, TRUE freedom fighter!

I remember what I was taught in the Marine Corps. I remember what was instilled in me, and I won’t ever forget it. I’m the last of a dying breed, a TRUE warrior, a TRUE freedom fighter, who loves America deeply, enough to die for her if need be. But, my own country ignores me, and hasn’t even given me the opportunity to serve her correctly. My own country shuns me, when I’m the last person who should be shunned. I’m the last person, on this earth, who should be ignored.

And that, my fellow Americans, is why America is doomed. She’s doomed because pride comes before the fall, and unfortunately, there’s too much pride in America, and not enough humility.

Listen, this isn’t about “doom and gloom”, but the Truth is, we’re in the end of days, and from here on out, it only gets rougher. It’s only going to get worse.

Only those who turn to GOD will truly make it, only those who depend on GOD are going to survive. Only those who serve the Lord will be able to see this thing all the way through.

But of course you have many wolves disguised as sheep and false prophets among you. Of course mankind’s “schools of thought”, and man-made dogmas and doctrines, have choked out the Truth about GOD that is in Christ Yeshua our Lord. Of course many honor the Lord with their lips, but their hearts are far from Him.

We true believers, we true servants of Yah, will be persecuted, maybe even tortured, and some of us even killed. We will be given a choice. Either we accept the mark of the beast (which could be a microchip implanted under the skin), or we will be put in concentration camps, or killed on the spot. If we don’t accept the mark of the beast, we won’t be able to buy and sell, we won’t be able to travel, we won’t be able to even get food.

Mark my words, a time of great persecution is coming for us true believers, a time of persecution far worse than the Apostles and first disciples of Christ experienced from the Roman Empire.

I’m telling you these things so that you will be prepared.

When it all goes down, don’t say I didn’t warn you. Don’t say I didn’t try to prepare you.

I’ll try not to say “I told you so”, but it will be hard for me not to say it, because I know what’s going to happen, and I’m not relying on my own intellectual prowess, nor am I leaning on my own understanding.

It’s all been Written eons ago, and it will come to pass. Everything written in the Word of GOD will come true. Every i will be dotted, and every t will be crossed. Not a single detail will be missed!

No human knows the day or hour, but the Day of the LORD rapidly approaches, so I suggest you stand guard, keep watch, and repent and turn to GOD, before it’s too late. Your only chance of survival is to turn to GOD. If you turn to the world system, even it will betray you! But the Lord, the Lord Almighty, the Holy One of Israel, Yahweh, will never betray you. Christ Yeshua will never leave you, nor forsake you, and He’s with you always, even to the end of the world.

Which Brings Prudence

Friday, August 27th, 2010

Sometimes I’m quiet, sometimes I won’t shut up.
Sometimes I start a riot, sometimes I won’t put up.

You’re experiencing a shift, a change in the pattern.
You’re flying in the current of the rings around Saturn.

Return to where you were, or leave from where you was.
It makes no difference what way you go, just catch the buzz.

Feel the flow, be in the zone, live every day in the moment.
Steal the show, or start your own form of entertainment.

You make the arrangement, if you reach you can attain it.
No need for an arraignment, the Lord will let you obtain it.

He’s our Attorney, He defends us, He takes care of us.
In Christ Yeshua we should Trust, and say this I must.

From the dust we were created, to the dust we’ll return.
Give more than you take, and keep more than you earn.

Don’t be affraid to learn, He’s the Teacher, we’re just students.
Be wise, fear the LORD, and seek His Counsel, which brings prudence.

Without You

Tuesday, August 24th, 2010

Yes, I needed you yesterday. I’m quite certain I wouldn’t have been so loud and rambunctious on Twitter yesterday had I been able to make love to you.

I don’t know your name, or what you look like, or where you even are. You certainly aren’t in my arms, where you should be.

I said I was going to write a romantic poem for you, whomever you are, and I will. However, before I do, please allow me to write some prose, to properly explain what it is that causes me to get so frustrated.

My phone number has been given out to several different women, each of whom I was interested in getting to know more about. I know I’ve gone over the same things again and again, and I know the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results. So maybe I’ve ventured off into insanity. Maybe I’m about to fall off of this tightrope I’ve been walking on.

I do not like silence! I can’t stand the silence!

I had typed out a long tweet earlier, but it was too many characters, and I was in the middle of mowing, so I didn’t post it.

I said, “I’d rather a woman call me and tell me she’s not interested in me, than to not call me at all, and leave me hanging.”

I mean that, from the bottom of my heart! I’d rather a woman call me and cuss me out, than to not call me at all. That has to be one of the most frustrating things about being rejected by women, especially when you know you’re TRULY a good man.

So obviously, after having attempted to clarify myself, and stand up for myself, and be assertive, yet do so without being too rude or mean, I’ve not yet contacted the woman who will marry me.

Surely my wife would understand why I get so frustrated from the silence, from lack of conversation, from lack of communication. Surely I wouldn’t have to rant and rave every day all day for her to understand why I’m upset.

I obviously have not yet conversed with my soul mate, my missing rib, my Eve. Up to this point in time, I do nothing but get myself all worked up for no reason, when I know it’s something I have no control over.

The Lord will provide a wife when I’m ready to be married. He will do this because He knows I’d be a much better servant, and much more calm, cool, and collective, as well as much more full of His Love, Joy, and Peace, if I didn’t have to deal with loneliness and solitude.

So, this short poem, love, is for whoever you are, wherever you are, and whenever I may find you.

Yesterday I wanted you, but I needed you more.
Today I pray you’d walk through that door.
You have no idea of what could be in store.
You’re going to be loved, and forever more.

I’ll tell you today in this creative way,
I’d rather you hear what I have to say.
I’d rather I hear your voice today.
This isn’t a game I like to play.

If you and I have any kind of future together,
We need to stick together in any weather.
Our love will make us light as a feather.
If you grab the lasso, I’ll grab the tether.

I look forward to the day we meet in person.
Until then, this poetic verse I’ll be rehearsin’
And I promise you I’m trying to quit cursin’
Without you, love, the curse will just worsen.

Dear Love

Monday, August 23rd, 2010

Dear love, I’ve been thinking about you non-stop. During the day I think about seeing your smile. During the evening I think about hearing your voice. In the morning when I wake up I imagine I’m laying beside you.

You are just a figment of my imagination right now, because right now I’m alone. I don’t know who you are, but I wish you’d come closer. I want to see you with my very own eyes, not see an image of you in my mind. I want to hear you with my very own ears, not hear an imaginary voice that echoes in my mind. I want to touch you with my very own hands, but my hands aren’t able to touch you. I want to hold you in my arms, but you’re out there somewhere, and I’m here all alone.

I miss you, and I don’t even know you! I wish I knew you. I wish I had met you already.

It’s difficult to walk by faith, not by sight. The flesh wants instant gratification, and my flesh is no different. I want to make passionate, sweet love to you today, not tomorrow, or next week, or next month, or next year, or 5 years from now.

I’ve been trying to keep my mind pure, and stay focused, but without you beside me, it’s hard, and I mean that literally!

Last night my erection wouldn’t go down, but I didn’t masturbate. I just left it alone, and eventually it went down.

I don’t want to lust after any woman, I only want to lust after my wife! It’s bad enough that I have a strong libido, but I don’t want to let my flesh rule me, I need to let Christ Yeshua rule me. That’s easier said than done.

Dear love, my love is here for you, whenever you want and need it. I’m not going to settle for just any woman, as hard as it is for me to refrain from sex until marriage, I’ve made that choice to do so, and I don’t want to go back on that choice. The Lord would be upset with me if I were to go back on my word.

I have before, in the past, I’ve fallen, and made many mistakes, but we’re too late in the season to be playing around with GOD. I’m held to a higher standard, to stricter morals and ethics, and I know I will be held accountable for everything I’ve thought, said, done, and not said and done, in my lifetime. I know the Truth, so I have no justification, no way to make any excuses for myself.

Dear love, I hope and pray you know and understand what I’m talking about. I hope and pray that some day I find you, or you find me, and we can come together, and start a family.

I love you, my future wife, whomever you are! I miss you!

I need you today, not tomorrow. I want you right now, but I’ll want you later on tonight as well.

To The Core

Friday, August 20th, 2010

The Lord has blessed me, yes He has, and I’m not ashamed to say it.
I’ll shout it out on the rooftops, I’ll show the world how to display it.

I’ll tell the world of His Unfailing Love, and of His Mercy and His Grace.
I’ll make sure to give Him the Honor and Glory, putting Him in His Place.

He’s suppose to be first in our lives, but we oftentimes make Him last.
Everyday is a day the Lord has made, so let’s not worry about the past.

We can examine history, to better understand where we came from.
Yet we can look forward to the future, whether we are smart or dumb.

In Truth, none of us are really dumb, we all have some kind of intelligence.
We are all able to learn, we all can grow, and try to regain our innocence.

We are all dependent on GOD, because without Him we wouldn’t exist.
He’s the one who created this Universe, without Him life would desist.

We can all become better humans, but not without the Lord teaching us.
We all should be needing Him, because He’s been needing all of us.

We all have to play a part, we all have to survive and live day by day.
Some of us pass on, some of us are born, since life began it’s been this way.

When I think about the Goodness of GOD, I am filled with a sense of peace.
It’s serenity, it’s Heaven, it’s Paradise, like resting my head on a soft fleece.

Life is sweet, things are good, I have nothing to complain about without a doubt.
The Lord is Good, on EVERY day, He certainly was today, He’s given me clout.

I didn’t want the fame, I didn’t want the name, I didn’t want to bring any shame.
I wanted to tell the world of His Unfailing Love, to me this isn’t a childish game.

This isn’t a “romantic” poem, this is a Love poem, about the One I truly adore.
He is my reason to write, He gives me strength to fight, He’s in me to the core.

Bring Me Shame

Saturday, August 14th, 2010

Some use a pen and paper, and a mic, to express themselves creatively.
With me, it is the keyboard, computer, and internet that has sedated me.

I don’t want to be a rapper, I’m a writer, a poet, a producer, and a scholar.
But I do love listening to Hip Hop, because it keeps me popping my collar.

I’m not going to holler at women anymore, I’ll wait for one to holler at me.
I’m going to prove I’m truly a good man, and continue to wait patiently.

Well, impatiently I wait, but I suppose it is only fate that love is late.
I’d love to go on a date, hopefully before I become the Head of State.

I’ll set my goals and make my plans, but the Lord orders my steps.
He has been doing that my whole life, including when I was in MEPS.

Yes, even when I didn’t put Him first, even when I was an unbeliever,
He was leading and guiding me, and sowing me together like a Weaver.

I remember Ms. Beaver, I had a crush on her, she gave me a fever.
She made me want to use my tool like a butcher uses a cleaver.

I sat beside her in A.P. Calculus, in school she was my economic stimulus.
She didn’t know I had a crush on her, she probably thought I was from Romulus.

I’m not talking about one of Rome’s twin founders, but about a planet in Star Trek.
I can’t help it, I’m a true nerd and geek, so I might as well be a Trekkie, what the heck.

I don’t even know why I went where I did in this meaningless, yet creative poem.
All I know is, I want to run into the arms of the woman I love, that is my home.

I wasn’t implying anything by mentioning someone’s name, I’m not playing a game.
I’m looking for a dame who will take my last name, not a lame who will bring me shame.

Lying To America’s Face

Friday, August 13th, 2010

You could never get the respect I get in the streets.
You could never duplicate my style, rhymes, or beats.

You could never do what I do, you don’t have enough class.
You’re just a student, I’m the teacher, and you’re flunking the class.

You try to please everyone, but you can’t please everyone.
You can’t try to hide or run, I’ll kill you lyrically, without using a gun.

You pretend you’re down, but you’re really just a silly clown.
You won’t even speak the Truth, you’re the biggest liar in town.

It isn’t K-town I’m referring to, it’s called the Columbian District,
I don’t have to mention your name, and forgive me if I seem strict.

I’m not trying to be rude, but I’m sick and tired of you dude!
I’m not in a bad mood, but I believe you should be sued.

You’ve lied so much that you don’t even know what the truth is.
I, on the other hand, continue to stay on the grind and handle my biz.

I’m not comparing myself to you, because you’re not even on my level.
I’m working for Christ, you’re working for satan, better known as the devil.

I’m not jealous of you, because there’s nothing to be jealous about.
But I will expose you for who you are, a compulsive liar without a doubt.

You wouldn’t know the Truth if it slapped you in the face, you’re a disgrace.
You would have a friend and ally in me if you stopped lying to America’s face.

Releasing Thoughts & Emotions

Thursday, August 12th, 2010

Can I be completely candid, open, and honest with you?

Can I speak frankly, in an adult manner, without others taking this the wrong way?

I have such a strong desire to make love to a woman right now.

My spirit doesn’t want to fall, my spirit wants to continue waiting on the Lord to provide. But my flesh is weak, my flesh is horny, and I’m close to saying what’s really on my mind just to get sexual gratification.

Is it wrong for me to be thinking like this? I’ve been wrestling with this for a while, because I’ve been wrestling with this strong libido ever since I first got an erection.

Even in past relationships I’ve been in, I’ve never fully explored my sexuality. Alot of times when I was in the mood, I masturbated, so that the woman I was with wouldn’t think I only wanted her for the sex.

But a man like me, who has a strong libido, does indeed have a desire to please his woman physically. It isn’t about him getting his rocks off, as much as it is about him showing her how much he loves her in a physical way.

A man is more physical, and knows and understands love in a physical way. A woman is more emotional, and knows and understands love in an emotional way.

I don’t know how many times I’ve held a woman in my arms, and wanted to take it to the next level, but feared that she would think I was only wanting sex. I don’t know how many times I’ve been the “gentleman”, and the “nice guy”, and was rejected.

I’m not trying to wallow in self pity and feel sorry for myself, I just pray that more women would understand what a good man goes through mentally and emotionally, just as I’m sure many women pray more men would understand what women go through mentally and emotionally.

How can we come to learn what each gender goes through if we don’t communicate with one another, and share our stories with one another? How can men be men if they don’t know what it means to be a man? How can women be women if they don’t know what it means to be a woman?

In this day and age, gender bending and homosexuality and bisexuality are pushed upon society, but in Truth, that’s not how the Lord would have us live our lives.

I couldn’t be comfortable, and myself, with another man, because it isn’t me. It’s not like I haven’t had any homosexual experiences in my life, because that’s not the Truth. The Truth is, in my younger years, I was confusing companionship and intimacy with sexual gratification. I didn’t know the difference. On a deep, psychological level, I was searching for a father figure because I didn’t know my father.

Nobody knows me like I know myself, and the Lord knows myself better than I do. He’s revealed to me why I made the mistakes I made, and He’s let me understand why I did what I did. He’s been healing me, He’s been filling that void in my life. But I’d be foolish, and not honest, to act or speak as if I’m fine being alone, single, celibate, and chaste.

No, I’m not fine being alone, single, celibate, and chaste.

While there’s nothing wrong with that kind of lifestyle, it is not the kind of lifestyle that I want to live. If I’m thinking this way, it’s because the Lord is telling me He hasn’t ordained me to remain celibate and chaste and marry the Church. Rather, He’s ordained that I get married, and show more men what it means to be a good man, and a faithful, loyal husband, who will love his wife as Christ loves His Church.

In other words, the Lord put in me a strong libido, it’s not wrong for me to have a strong libido, it would be wrong if I continued to act out on my fleshly desires, and let this wretched flesh of mine rule me. It is perfectly normal, and natural, for me to have a desire to please a woman in a physical, sexual way. Sex in marriage is a wonderful, beautiful thing, and the marriage bed is undefiled.

But I tell you, it’s not easy being patient, and waiting on the Lord. That’s the lesson He’s been teaching me through this whole ordeal.

I don’t want to lust after any other woman but my wife. Since I’m not yet married, I don’t know who to lust after. It’s wrong that I would even lust after a woman in my mind, but it’s not easy to keep my thoughts pure when testosterone is built up inside of me. Thus, I masturbate, to release, because it’s all I can do right now.

I’d love to be telling a woman this in person, and being more intimate with her in private. Right now, that’s not an option. Thus, I have to release these thoughts and emotions in me, and writing these blogs is how I do that, because it’s all I can do right now.

I’m Not Acting

Thursday, August 12th, 2010

Both “nerd power” and “star power” are not what they seem. It’s easy put your all into acting when you’re getting paid millions of dollars to do it.

It’s not easy to put your all into a business when you’re making very little money, if any, to do it.

It’s not easy to be selfless and try to help others when you’re just as needy as those you’re helping.

For once I wish Hollywood would accurately describe what life is TRULY like, rather than glamorize an idea, a dream, a written script of what life is like.

How is that possible? Movies are expensive to make, and you have to pay good actors and actresses a decent amount of money to get the best performance. The directors, writers, camera people, editors, sound engineers, and make-up artists all have to be paid.

But what about taking things one day at a time, and simply being yourselves? It’s not acting if you’re being yourself.

I’ve been called a nerd my whole life, and it isn’t easy being a nerd. Being a nerd means being laughed at, and made fun of, because you’re very smart and intelligent. Being a nerd means others asking you to help them with their homework because they can’t understand the material, and you do, even though you’re not even in the class.

Being a geek means people turn to you when they have computer and electronic equipment problems, because they can’t afford to pay Geek Squad prices.

Hollywood glamorizes the “nerd” and “geek” persona, but in reality, being the nerd and the geek isn’t so glamorous.

That’s coming from a true nerd and geek, a broke one at that.

I’m not acting. If I was acting, I’d be getting paid good money!

Hollywood glamorizes the “thug” and “gangsta” persona, but being a TRUE thug and gangsta more times than not leads to jail time or death.

Bad actors get delt with real quick.

Thankfully, I’m not acting.