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To Be True

Monday, August 30th, 2010

Verse 1

Not a day goes by that I don’t think of you, and imagine spending time with you.
Not a night passes that I don’t dream about you, and fantasize about making love to you.

As each minute ends and another begins, I can see more acutely through life’s convex lens.
As the sands in the hourglass trickle down, I eagerly wait for the time your love will cleanse.

Patience is a virtue that can’t be taught, temperance is hard to find, and compassion is rarely sought.
Your silence teaches me patience, your wildness helps me find temperance, compassion is all I’ve got.

I’m not happy being on my own, but I won’t let that keep me from boldly approaching GOD’S Throne.
He tells me He loves me, and He lets me know He’ll never forsake me, nor will He leave me alone.

He’s with me always, even to the end of the world, and His Love is real, the realest love I’ve ever known.
I look forward to the day when I will be compensated for my work, and will reap what I have sown.

I may be poor in the world, but it doesn’t matter, in the Kingdom of GOD I’m very rich and wealthy.
I may be struggling to survive right now, but it’s all good, the Lord heals me and makes me healthy.

He does what no human could ever do, He makes ways out of no way, I’ll give credit where credit is due.
My dreams I’ll pursue, and I’ll make my plans, but the Lord orders my steps, and blesses me in all I do.

The Lord is good, always, on every day, and in every kind of way, so I’ll serve Him until the day I die.
I refuse to take the mark of the beast, though my faith may be tested, I’ll still tell the Truth, I won’t lie.

Chorus

I feel you in my heart, I see you in my mind, and I hear you in my spirit too.
You and I will one day be together, but until then I’m always thinking of you.
Whether I’m up speaking in the Pulpit, or sitting down listening in the pew,
I miss you terribly, and I love you dearly, I pray you know this to be true.

Take My Last Name

Thursday, August 26th, 2010

You should have saw me today baby, I was on top of my game!
I handled my business, in reverse, I conquered, I saw, I came.

One night, on a night like tonight, I can come home and make love to you.
That is, if you’re in the mood, and the only way to find out is if I pursue.

If tonight was a bad night, I won’t fuss and fight, I’ll just hold you through the night.
You’ve given me the sight to see Christ’s Light, and the inspiration I need to fight.

You’re still the second reason I write, you’re still my muse, my Epiphany.
One of these days I’ll write you a sonnet, and compose you a symphony.

But this paper romance is getting old, boring, and monotonous.
Now I want real romance, now I want to be spontaneous.

If we were together right now, I wouldn’t be writing this poem.
We’d be holding each other in bed while we sleep in our home.

You can rub my shiny dome, it will bring you fortune and fame.
But that is not possible unless you decide to take my last name.

Without You

Tuesday, August 24th, 2010

Yes, I needed you yesterday. I’m quite certain I wouldn’t have been so loud and rambunctious on Twitter yesterday had I been able to make love to you.

I don’t know your name, or what you look like, or where you even are. You certainly aren’t in my arms, where you should be.

I said I was going to write a romantic poem for you, whomever you are, and I will. However, before I do, please allow me to write some prose, to properly explain what it is that causes me to get so frustrated.

My phone number has been given out to several different women, each of whom I was interested in getting to know more about. I know I’ve gone over the same things again and again, and I know the definition of insanity is doing the same things over and over again and expecting different results. So maybe I’ve ventured off into insanity. Maybe I’m about to fall off of this tightrope I’ve been walking on.

I do not like silence! I can’t stand the silence!

I had typed out a long tweet earlier, but it was too many characters, and I was in the middle of mowing, so I didn’t post it.

I said, “I’d rather a woman call me and tell me she’s not interested in me, than to not call me at all, and leave me hanging.”

I mean that, from the bottom of my heart! I’d rather a woman call me and cuss me out, than to not call me at all. That has to be one of the most frustrating things about being rejected by women, especially when you know you’re TRULY a good man.

So obviously, after having attempted to clarify myself, and stand up for myself, and be assertive, yet do so without being too rude or mean, I’ve not yet contacted the woman who will marry me.

Surely my wife would understand why I get so frustrated from the silence, from lack of conversation, from lack of communication. Surely I wouldn’t have to rant and rave every day all day for her to understand why I’m upset.

I obviously have not yet conversed with my soul mate, my missing rib, my Eve. Up to this point in time, I do nothing but get myself all worked up for no reason, when I know it’s something I have no control over.

The Lord will provide a wife when I’m ready to be married. He will do this because He knows I’d be a much better servant, and much more calm, cool, and collective, as well as much more full of His Love, Joy, and Peace, if I didn’t have to deal with loneliness and solitude.

So, this short poem, love, is for whoever you are, wherever you are, and whenever I may find you.

Yesterday I wanted you, but I needed you more.
Today I pray you’d walk through that door.
You have no idea of what could be in store.
You’re going to be loved, and forever more.

I’ll tell you today in this creative way,
I’d rather you hear what I have to say.
I’d rather I hear your voice today.
This isn’t a game I like to play.

If you and I have any kind of future together,
We need to stick together in any weather.
Our love will make us light as a feather.
If you grab the lasso, I’ll grab the tether.

I look forward to the day we meet in person.
Until then, this poetic verse I’ll be rehearsin’
And I promise you I’m trying to quit cursin’
Without you, love, the curse will just worsen.

Dear Love

Monday, August 23rd, 2010

Dear love, I’ve been thinking about you non-stop. During the day I think about seeing your smile. During the evening I think about hearing your voice. In the morning when I wake up I imagine I’m laying beside you.

You are just a figment of my imagination right now, because right now I’m alone. I don’t know who you are, but I wish you’d come closer. I want to see you with my very own eyes, not see an image of you in my mind. I want to hear you with my very own ears, not hear an imaginary voice that echoes in my mind. I want to touch you with my very own hands, but my hands aren’t able to touch you. I want to hold you in my arms, but you’re out there somewhere, and I’m here all alone.

I miss you, and I don’t even know you! I wish I knew you. I wish I had met you already.

It’s difficult to walk by faith, not by sight. The flesh wants instant gratification, and my flesh is no different. I want to make passionate, sweet love to you today, not tomorrow, or next week, or next month, or next year, or 5 years from now.

I’ve been trying to keep my mind pure, and stay focused, but without you beside me, it’s hard, and I mean that literally!

Last night my erection wouldn’t go down, but I didn’t masturbate. I just left it alone, and eventually it went down.

I don’t want to lust after any woman, I only want to lust after my wife! It’s bad enough that I have a strong libido, but I don’t want to let my flesh rule me, I need to let Christ Yeshua rule me. That’s easier said than done.

Dear love, my love is here for you, whenever you want and need it. I’m not going to settle for just any woman, as hard as it is for me to refrain from sex until marriage, I’ve made that choice to do so, and I don’t want to go back on that choice. The Lord would be upset with me if I were to go back on my word.

I have before, in the past, I’ve fallen, and made many mistakes, but we’re too late in the season to be playing around with GOD. I’m held to a higher standard, to stricter morals and ethics, and I know I will be held accountable for everything I’ve thought, said, done, and not said and done, in my lifetime. I know the Truth, so I have no justification, no way to make any excuses for myself.

Dear love, I hope and pray you know and understand what I’m talking about. I hope and pray that some day I find you, or you find me, and we can come together, and start a family.

I love you, my future wife, whomever you are! I miss you!

I need you today, not tomorrow. I want you right now, but I’ll want you later on tonight as well.

Either Way

Sunday, August 22nd, 2010

You’re with me when I’m on top of the world, living on cloud nine.
You’re with me when I’m in the belly of the beast, where the sun don’t shine.

You’re with me during the day, when the sun does shed her light.
You’re with me during the night, when it’s so dark nothing is in sight.

I’m with you wherever you go, so you’re with me wherever I go.
We’ve grown close to one another, we love each other, very much so.

I need you, do you need me? I believe we need each other, but I’ll let you be.
I want you, do you want me? If so, come take me quickly, while I’m still free.

If you want to give this a try, I’m game, but I’m not about any games.
I’m ready to show one woman how much I love her, not all the dames.

If we’re both marriage minded, then what stops us from taking it there?
What do we have to lose? Why can’t we just play Truth or dare?

If you ask me any questions I will tell you no lies, I will tell you the Truth.
If I do not know the answer, I will tell you this also, you are my fountain of youth.

I can change the flow, and take a different route, just so you know, this isn’t a final go.
I’m just trying to creatively express myself, this poetic boat I continue to row.

The topic at hand is marriage, may I please have your hand?
If you were standing beside me, life would surely be grand.

I want to walk with you in the sand, all the way to the Promised Land,
walking hand in hand, and for Christ’s Sake taking a stand.

May the Lord have His Way, may His Will be done in both our life.
May this be the case, whether you are or are not my wife.

The decision is yours to make, you have my answer, it’s up to you now.
Whatever your decision, I accept it with joy, this for me is a Tao.

If I am the yin and you are the yang, then let’s come together and do our thang.
We can both make it rain, we are both riding on the Lord’s Soul Train.

We’re both destined for greatness, we’re both going to shine in any weather.
Yet we’d be better off together, loving one another forever and ever.

If I am in you and you are in me, then let’s come together and start a family.
We’ll show the world what love is about, and how a marriage is suppose to be.

The night is young, but tomorrow’s a busy day, so this is all I have to say.
Regardless of your answer, I’ll always be here for you, and I love you either way.

Beside This Good Man

Friday, August 20th, 2010

I had a Vision earlier, and it was about you. We had grown old and wrinkly, we were grandparents. We sat there holding each others’ hands as we watched a movie, every so often looking at each other when we saw something romantic. It was as if we had never fallen out of love, we had been madly, deeply, head over heals in love with each other since the first day we met. We still loved each other deeply, and it was not about to end just yet.

We had been blessed, and we were well off financially. But we still thought about others, and served the Lord faithfully. He had kept us strong, and made us prosperous, but we remained humble, and kept putting Him in front of us.

It was a Vision I saw, not an imagination. I’m claiming it as a Vision because I’m claiming that one day it will come true.

I know what I want, I know what I need, but I don’t know who you are, because I’m not currently speaking to any woman in a romantic way.

Hopefully one day that will change, and one GOD fearing woman will be honored to take my last name.

One day I’ll be able to say, in all honesty, “beside every good man is a great woman”.

It will be the day a great woman is honored to stand beside this good man.

Yours To Keep

Monday, August 16th, 2010

You know I dream about you all the time, right?
I imagine holding you in my arms througout the night.

But you’re not in sight, so loneliness makes me feel contrite.
I don’t want to fuss and fight, I just want to love you right.

I want to look into your eyes when I’m speaking to you.
So you’ll know I’m not telling lies when I tell you what I do.

I’ll tell you I miss you and love you every day, and all the time,
But I’d rather show you I do than tell you in poetic rhyme.

One day this won’t be my only option to be intimate with you.
One day we’ll both agree to make that vow and say “I do”.

Me without you is like the sky not being blue and having a different hue.
I’m lost because you’re not beside me, so my dreams aren’t coming true.

Me without you is like the earth without any river, ocean, or sea.
My heart is a desert, I need the water that is your love to be free.

I lay down to sleep, but I cannot sleep at all alone, so instead I weep.
My love is real, true, and deep, so if you want it, it’s yours to keep.

While I Nap

Sunday, August 8th, 2010

I wish I knew how to love you.
You are so far way, so I miss you.

But I don’t know who you are.
I’m just wishing on a star.

I dream about you day and night.
I don’t want to fuss and fight.

I’d love to love you right.
I can be your knight.

I’ve searched for you far and near.
I’ve waited in the front and the rear.

Still I haven’t found you, so I shed a tear.
I need you dear, so please don’t fear.

I won’t ever hurt you, you are my mirror.
I may be emotional, but I’m not a queer.

I need you to listen to me, not just hear.
I want to drink your love, not a cold beer.

In my heart is a love that is uncommon and rare.
Take advantage of you? I wouldn’t even dare.

Don’t mind me, I can’t help but stare.
I don’t want to be selfish, I want to share.

I’m in this world all alone, so forgive the sap.
I’ll just continue to dream about you while I nap.

It’s Because I’m Not Married!

Friday, July 16th, 2010

Today has been wonderful and terrific!

Things aren’t always bad, and things aren’t always good, but today has been a GREAT day, and I mean that sincerely.

I’ve got a little bit of money in my pocket again, not much, again, but enough to relax, again. At least, for now.

I badly need a new pair of shoes, and I need to get some hygiene supplies, but you know what I REALLY want to do?

I STILL would love to get a dozen roses for a special woman, or get her a nice, romantic card and a teddy bear!

I’d rather give the woman I love my hard earned money, than spend it on myself.

That’s just me. I don’t have it to trick, so I’m not tricking it, I’m not going to go to some strip club and tip a stripper to dance erotically for me, like I used to do.

What I’m saying is, I want to be romantic, but I STILL have no woman to be romantic with!

I really don’t want to go to that bachelorette party tomorrow, but I think I’m going to go anyways, just to get out and have some fun. If I fall, it’s because I’m not married, and I have needs that aren’t being met.

I keep saying I need to get married, but no woman has married me yet!

Ok! Very well! I don’t want to fall, but if I do, you can’t say I’m cheating on my wife, because it isn’t cheating if no woman has committed to me yet!

Hey, after 4 long, hard years of being celibate, it’s time for me to explore my sexuality again.

I read an interesting article earlier while I was waiting to start teaching that discussed middle aged women’s sexual drives, and why they become more sexually active. It was pretty scientific and medical, and mentioned that as women get older, they have a stronger desire to have children, and since it’s harder for them to have children as they get older, that leads to them having more sex.

Hmmm! Here I am, having a VERY strong libido, but I have no woman to make love to!

I masturbated this morning. I’m sorry, I did what I did because my libido was in overdrive, and I couldn’t contain it anymore. If I was married, this wouldn’t be an issue, because then I could just make love to my wife. Even if she isn’t in the mood when I am in the mood, even if she’s menstruating, I’d still be able to contain myself, and refrain, because I know that it wouldn’t be too long before she became in the mood. Why? Because, I have an affect on women, when I make love to a woman, she loves it, because I put my ALL into it! I make sure she is pleased, it isn’t about me just getting my rocks off. I make sure she orgasms, at least once, if not twice, or three times or more.

But, as I’ve stated many times, until I get married, this is the dilemma I am facing.

Do I continue to wait for a woman to open her mind and heart and choose to marry me, or do I just let myself explore my sexuality? I know it’s wrong for me to fornicate, but hey, a man’s got needs, and my needs aren’t being met. I know the Lord knows and understands what I’m struggling with, I don’t think He’s going to sentence me to hell if I fall again. As long as I repent, I’ll be fine.

This blog is written in all honesty and sincerity. I really don’t want to fall, but I’m only human, I’m not perfect, I am capable of making mistakes, I do err, and I do sin and fall short of the Glory of GOD.

Until a woman chooses to marry me, I’ll continue to wrestle with this strong libido. Until a woman opens her mind and heart and gives me “A chance at romance”, I’ll continue to struggle with my flesh.

I don’t just want sex from a woman, don’t misunderstand me, because it isn’t like that at all. If I’ve gone this long without sex, knowing I’ve got a strong libido, then to me that proves that I’d rather have companionship and intimacy than sexual gratification.

However, since no woman has married me, I’m not going to try to hide or lie about the fact that I’m a man, and I do have a desire to please a woman physically. I’d rather make love to a woman, not just have sex. I won’t make love to ANY woman other than my wife. So, this is a warning.

If ANY woman out there is looking for a GOOD man who will be faithful and loyal to her, and treat her like a lovely, beautiful princess, and respect her for her mind and heart, not just her body and outer beauty, she’d be doing me a BIG favor to come and find me, and save me from myself!

I’d rather be romantic with a woman, rather than raunchy. I’d rather have companionship and intimacy than sexual gratification. However, since this nice guy is still finishing last, then maybe I ought to be raunchy! Since I still haven’t found a woman who will CONVERSE with me romantically, then I don’t feel so bad for letting myself explore my sexuality outside of marriage. Since my basic need to love and be loved still isn’t being met, I won’t feel too convicted if I do fall to temptation. Since I still don’t have companionship and intimacy, I won’t feel shame if I get sexual gratification tomorrow.

All I can do is pray I don’t fall to temptation. But if I do, it’s because I’m not married!

No Longer

Friday, July 9th, 2010

I don’t care if I push EVERY reader I have gained within four years’ time away from me,
it will be worth it if I can find ONE special woman to love forever, as it’s suppose to be.

Others can say I’m wallowing in self pity and feeling sorry for myself, but I don’t care.
My basic need to love and be loved STILL isn’t being met, so to me life isn’t fair.

How dare I complain about something so simple, when many have it much worse?
Yet I pray that one day I can find a woman to love before I’m riding in a hearse.

If I was a nurse carrying a leather purse I wouldn’t have this problem, this I know.
I don’t want to curse in this verse, but loneliness and solitude is pissing me off, yo.

Is there ANY woman out there who really wants and needs a good man’s love?
Or am I just being impatient and not trusting and believing in the Good Lord above?

I know He has my best interests in mind, which is why I pray that love I might one day find.
Without my glasses I’m basically blind, my teeth will get fixed when this check gets signed.

If a woman can’t look beyond my outer appearance and look at my heart, then she’s not the one.
But if she sees me for who I am, and realizes my potential, I hope she won’t turn around and run.

I ask a woman nicely if she wants to go on a date, and for some strange reason I get no answer.
I ask a woman if I can get her number, or give her mine, but she thinks I’m trying to depants her.

I don’t have cancer, and I’m not a Cancer, I’m a Scorpio, which means I can be the kinky freak.
It’s easy for me to make a woman orgasm, I rule the sexual dominion, even though I’m a geek.

I would rather SPEAK these lyrics than write them, but I still have no woman to speak with.
I’ve written before I’m like a real life Neo, and I’m STILL fighting against a real life Mr. Smith.

Where’s my Trinity? I need her right now! I’m lonely and all alone in this spiritual killing field.
I still have to be about our Heavenly Father’s Business, that Double Edged Sword I must wield.

His Blood has sealed the deal, so I have to yield to my flesh, I can no longer steal, nor fornicate.
I need to get married soon, that way I won’t burn with lust, and I’ll no longer have to masturbate.

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That “real life Mr. Smith” I’m fighting against is my flesh.

I know I’m my own worst enemy.

My flesh is still wrestling with my spirit, the personal Jihad is the greatest jihad!